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9 years of goodbyes. or 10, if you count the first one. or 9 again if you notice the year i didn't say anything.

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Eulogies for my Mother:  August 30, 2011, the day before my mother died: It is crazy how quickly something can feel normal, how quickly we can adjust. For now, my life is right here, in this quiet room, reading and listening to her breath. September 1, 2011, the day after my mother died: my momma died last night. surrounded by love and in the room where her grandson was born. it was a hard journey getting there but in the end, she had peace. 2012 One year ago my mom died. She liked Jerry Garcia, football, bad tv, warm coffee, jack, jack, jack and buying things for jack, ice cream bars, gin and tonics, Joan Baez, Bob Dylan, Eugene, vanilla and lavender, petting my hair, Anderson cooper, tasty snacks, making fun of my friends, loving my friends, loving her friends, being alone, calling me every day to tell me everything she thought of or saw or wanted to do. She loved me more than anyone and I miss her every single day. 2013 2 years ago today I said goodbye to my momma. I miss her so...

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 I’m very open about my mental health and physical health struggles, I’ve got a long list of medications that many in this town would say I should replace with a hike in the woods or as one emergency room dr told me when I was in the ER for an aneurysm/migraine “have you tried a cup of coffee?” but I keep taking them because I have two amazing boys who are my team but I’m the coach and I have to stick around for them and the meds help me want to do that. One of the problems with both the health issues and the medications is that they impair my memory and I’m not always able to remember the words I am trying to use the way that I used to. So now I write a lot but mostly I write long text messages to friends (and acquaintances who I hope might not judge me too hard for my crazy) but sometimes I feel like they should have the option of maybe NOT reading the novels that I send them. So now I’m going to try and put those novels here. And the nice thing about this is that I have time to ...